A day filled with up and down: 20th May 2009

It's been two days i couldn't online updating my blog and see what my friends were up to in facebook and plurk. Today, i'm here to share the happiness (positive) and also the sadness (negative) on 20th May 2009 [Wednesday] with whoever is here to read my blog. I would like to mention the positive one first and try to shorten the negative one.. alright, my life is full of positives (ups) and negatives (downs), and i believe that everyone's life is the same..but no matter what, i will try hard to balance it so that my life will be even more beautiful in the future.

First, i would like to congratulate my friend, Victoria, who had just registered marriage on 20th May 2009. I'm so happy and excited for her marriage. May be i can say that i'm not a good friend of hers, but me, i'm one of those kind who will feel happy for anyone of her friends' happiness. Even though i couldn't really enjoy it that day as i was really worried about my dog who was extremely ill at home,however,i just didn't want to miss the important moment of her life. Because i know and i care, that's why i was there - the marriage register's department. I'm not sure if i get the chance to go in there one day, perhaps, i will..perhaps, i will not. That day i talked quite a lot with her. One more thing i'd like to tell her is that, i hope one day i can be like her with the guts and certainty she has for the future of marriage, overcome the fear in me and then fulfill the dream of my life. Another thing that made my day was meeting her husband's buddies. They were so humourous in every conservation. Humor,that's right,it is what i needed now!!~ They successfully lighten up my cloudy day.


Congratulations, Vic..i wish you a happy marriage..=) By chance i met the Rasa Sayang crew, i guess i will give myself a try to join Rasa Sayang in the near future.. i was still hesistating ealier on..my dad would like me to work there when i discussed my future with him.. and now,by meeting the humourous heads, i think my fear to go for an interview in Rasa Sayang is getting much lesser. After the registration ceremony, i was invited to join them for lunch. Many more jokes, funny and interesting topics..hahaha..now when i recall it, it makes me smile..[i wanted to laugh but my family would probably think that it's freaking insane] So, after a goodbye to everyone. I met my ex-colleague, Nick, outside the mini market beside Vintage Bulgaria. We stopped there awhile, then rushed back to my house and luckily i saved my dog! The vet said he would be dead if we delay 2 or 3 hours later. I heard the SPCA pet transportation driver said that this vet has the most expensive charges in Penang but he is the best. Thus, i hope he can really cure my dog as i see him doesn't wanna "go" yet. He is very ill, he couldn't stand up and walk at all, yet he never stops trying to stand up again. There are two options for him, let him sleep or let him continue his life. I choose the second option. I think he doesn't wanna give up yet. It will be tiring for me to take care of him all alone, my family members think that is my responsibility. No matter what, i will do my best to take care of him until his last breath of this life.


He's cute,isn't he? no matter what,he will always in my heart forever and ever.

In fact,i was happy because the vet is willing to treat him, while the other vet had totally given up of him already. It still considers as a positive thing on that day. To the vet and my dog, i'm still positive to them.

But when it comes to my family...i guess...let me shorten the whole negative thing into one sentence: i had a big fight with my family. well, may be the "best" is yet to come..haha..there's a huge gap between my thinking and their thinkings. At this moment, i can say i hate them...only at this moment..i know it won't last..but still at this moment...[sighing]
I decided to go out from the place which almost no air in there - my house (shall i call it home?i guess...not now..) i couldn't breathe.
When i was crying and driving on the road, i realised i had no where to go.
Who should i call to? pyng? she's not here. my boyfriend? awhhh nope! no no no no no!
and then, i remembered that i had a date with my friends at House of Steamboat
at 8pm. When i looked at the time, my eyes were red and swollen. How could i let all of them see this miserable me when they all thought i'm already strong enough these days? oh god..you must be kidding me..i've been waiting a long time to hang out with them!
End up,i decided to be absent, the reason was i didn't want to spoil their moods.
what a lousy excuse. [laughing ironically]

Then, i drove up to Batu Ferringhi. A place where brings me tranquility in mind.
I spent the whole evening at Sunset Bistro. I knew i chose the right place to calm myself down.


at least I had this parrot keep me company a whole evening...hahaha..
It's noisy when it speaks/shouts/yells..whatever..i only know its voice is extremely loud. I didn't really mind if it's noisy or not..as long as i could feel something around me,so that i wouldn't feel that i was all alone.
With the relaxing sound of the waves, the miserable feeling was getting better.
I started to read my book: Meditation - the most natural therapy.
I learnt about the relaxation, energy, concentration and creativity..4 chapters.
It helped me a lot. I found that things were not that bad anymore when my mind was calming down.
Then, i began to keep my focus on the evening sunset and beautiful scene of the beach. One of the practice of concentration which brings myself to the present, breathing slower...breathing deeper..aware of the rythm..
I totally fell in love with the sunset of Batu Ferringhi. The pain, as if it no longer so existed, replaced with a contented smile.
How i wish he could be there enjoying a breezy evening with me..
Alright, this time i'll end my post with a short video.
Let's see how the lovely parrot cheer me up: