A Letter from an Angel.

After a long break, it's time for me to share thoughts and feelings in blog.
I guess, most of my friends had heard about my relationship that it did not work out.

and I got a real bad sick after the broke-up. The good thing is that I manage to get over it and STAYING ALIVE.

There's something i feel like sharing here. It's a letter from my twin sis, Kelly. A letter which gives me strength, motivation,and encouragement.


I'd like to thank her for allowing me to share its content in my blog.

From my angel to me:

Dear my twin sis, i'd like to thank for showing you to me, allowing me to know you more deeply during and after NS. Without fate, i wouldn't know you're a "twin" for me (& vice versa). in these few days,i've a real wonderful time with you, having pillow talks, eating good food, pampering each other. daring ourselves to adventure unfamiliar roads, get good books, snap good pictures & etc.

wow!! we've done a lot, haven't we?I really hope you enjoy and love all these new experience together with me as i really do. Treasure these memories,will you?

I know what you're worrying with after steeping back to Penang and your home. You're worried that you have to face your daily life again (reality), facing the past emotional pain, past memory and the past you.

well, i purposely underline the word "past" because it has become your past, don't you realize it?


From what you've shared to me, i know that you've gone through a lot, hardship and challenges that i could never imagine. You've shared from your childhood experience, teenage, and even till now. All i can say is, you are a real strong girl. a real fighter, and a real lover who stay strong, fight for survival and spread your love to whoever in need.You're willing to give anything a try (in fact sincere & big try) to something which you think is impossible like travel alone to One-Utama alone, coming to my house, trying a relationship, sitting for exam, going for medical help, working with strangers & etc.

Frankly, i really think that you are a strong and determine girl who are clear with wrongs and rights, and your inner voice is so strong that she keeps on talking and whispering whenever dangers and happiness approach. It is a matter of whether you wanna hear it or neglect it.

Jill, i really wish to let you know that you have strong heart and mind. Not everyone can face and do like you did. Trust me, not everyone.

You've succeeded showing me how can stand up to face the world all by yourself.
No one help nor pull you to stand up, but yourself. I am just here, witnessing your success. And, this is you, Jillian Lee. Also, this is the present you.

I can see you're ready to face your life again, after hiding from it so long. Trust me, my twin sis, that YOU ARE READY. Although you might deny your ability, still there are proves that you are ready. Think of what you have done for yourself in these few days when you're in KL. How you take care of your health, how you dress up for yourself, how you speak with strangers and how you control your mind and emotion by yourself.

These are your success and celebrate them. If you keep these mind and attitude, i believe you'll do the same in YOUR FUTURE - even just yourself.

Leave the past, appreciate your present, and plan for future. I know you can face the coming road as this is Jillian Lee.

Kelly is proud of you. You're always in our loves.#

I read it in the bus when i was leaving KL. Tears filled my eyes as reading it, i know,I'll be different after this, with all the love and support i have.

A trip with new experience, new memories, and new friends. and then,i come back with a brand new ME. :D